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“Great minds discuss ideas. Mediocre minds discuss events. Small minds discuss people.” — Eleanor Roosevelt
Career ambitions: Ends are distinct from
means. And paradoxically, with ultimate ends, greater specificity often
equals greater and more abstract generality. The ends may be the ideal job,
even if it must be created for myself, Entrepreneurially. But the ultimate
ends are optimal reciprocal
engagement in pleasurable and
meaningful
interaction, better still, profitably. Likewise, avoidance of protracted
senseless and repetitively
boring non creative activity. Thus, indeed, the
most specific and intrinsic is revealed as the most general and abstract.
But find all manner of wide-ranging specific interlocking Entrepreneurial and
Activist endeavors and proposals catalogued herein.
I yearn
for connection and input to make a real difference in such execution of new
ideas as truly otherwise would never come to fruition all. I hope to find or
to assemble a serious working group to strategize such exciting new ventures
from inception to implementation. I also seek both to build close personal
relationships and also to enjoy the novelty of new connections.
My social needs therefore and likewise are in the discovery of some or other
means or process of engagement pleasurably and
meaningfully
in outreach prospecting for new contacts in order to cultivate relationships
of pleasurable and
meaningful
engagement and
attachment in functional webs of support,
and the avoidance of frustrating drudgery of lonely
superficiality and triviality that are the prevailing
alienated paradigm especially sans
fortuitous prior
connections for sharing better introductions.
I may ever hope at all to be a mensche, compassionate, companionable, approachable, empathic, honest, reliable, playful, disciplined, a staunch ally and accomplice, attentive, supportive and accepting, a true friend and close confidant often valued in how, with patience, attention, kindness and abiding respect, I am worth knowing. My few close relationship tend to be such as kindled from an often conflicted fascination with my compassionate intellect, candor and principle. I have been a friend and of help and comfort to others both in strategic thinking and to probe and better understand themselves and even to take heart in quest of whatever personal forbidden fruit.
For authentic love, compassion and friendship are all distinctly marked by such features as patience and kindness rather than envy, rude and boastful pride, domineering control quick to wrath and grudge collecting, by forthright honesty rather than hollow flattery and self-serving deceit, by protection and trust with every hope for the others' best interests, with perseverance through conflict, wanting for another all that they want for themselves.
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I am loquacious, incisive, a good listener and a scintillating conversationalist, a most amusing fellow and with an excellent and unusual sense of humor. I am warm, somewhat transparent, intense, lecherous, engaging, challenging, original, memorable, observant, perceptive, imaginative, capable of unusual creative connection of multiple seemingly unrelated ideas, meaningfully, with superior reasoning, experimental perspective of trial and error, abstract conceptualization and problem solving, both convergent and divergent thinking, pattern recognition, high intelligence, highest verbal ability, depth, content, advanced comprehension and insight, and perhaps therefore often awkward and irritable towards idle dissociation and feigning interest in vapid small talk, guile and arbitrarily vicious and picayune backbiting.
I often feel different and out of step with others, bored, lonely, socially isolated and unappreciated. Indeed, I am often much maligned. As something of a non-conformist, I am indeed critical and argumentative, tending to question seemingly arbitrary rules and dubious authority by pressing embarrassing and even taboo questions. So be beware defying the malignant expectations of bullies and be careful of being seen with me, I am unpopular and it will rub off!
Whenever traveling in social circle where my name is bandied about, be sure to ask all about me. You will thereby learn precious little about be and everything about the person speaking. It seems, alas, that somehow I have always been such a tremendous magnet for projection and negative transference...
Alas, in every walk of life, my talent and ambitions, my emotional intelligence and relationship needs, all may often be shown by far advanced of my somewhat less formidable and poorly organized social dexterity. I am experienced with the hard lessons repeated failure, indeed even defeat snatched from the very jaws of victory! I am a looser. And I'll be a loser until I finally meet with greater success. I am a reject. And I will be a reject until I ever find greater acceptance.
Even quite without social status to enhance another's social standing passively by association, then, better by far and without desperate sycophancy, true friends and allies will still make no secret of mutual respect and real assistance.
Hence, so wonting of achievement, social standing, connection and clout, I am only ever valued and appreciated upon my own merits by those who first at all will be troubled to relate to me directly, Therefore, I tend more towards cultivation of few close friendships than the adolescent fascination with vast networks of acquaintanceships that is clearly so advantageous in life. I remain unpopular and unappreciated by anyone who troubles not to better know me for themselves, cherished only by those few who do, an asset never a liability. I am neither powerful nor facile, and have never sustained any personal relationship with anyone who didn't see good from it.
I often find myself in a quandary of frustrated aspirations and values and...
Seeking, always, happiness with: "a partner in crime."
